Gone but not forgotten

Ok, I'm here, but I'm the worst mother on earth so I haven't posted for awhile. I forgot to feed my chickens and I think they ran away. I've yelled at both my kids recently. Yes, the 6 month old has apparently been very bad. I've been having mama meltdown and not enough energy to even whine-type about it. But I'm seeing the other side and making an effort here. Spent 5 days at the cabin where I was the Good Mama. Arrived home last night and immediately morphed back into Cruella de Mama. Trying to figure out how to stay a decent human being where the population is more than one person per square mile. Wrote a bit at the cabin. I'll post it later as proof I have goodness in my heart.